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2007-10-31 - 9:30 p.m.
Happy Halloween. I think I am going downtown to the bars but I have been going back and forth about it all night. Mostly because A: I had a shitty afternoon and am majorly bummed/pissed off and B: My midriff is not up to snuff. I know, I know. I was all braggy the other day, but really, yeah. I was just frontin' to cover up my insecurity about my less than stellar abdominals. It's sad. Pouty face. Anyhoo, I'm bummed and pissed because my curriculum unit got shit all over yet again. It's really frustrating. REALLY frustrating. And I am all mopey and unhappy now. But maybe going out will cheer me up. Probably not, but I am making the effort. Einstein is a bitch, but I'm still going out with her and Emmy and LT. Red will be there, which is good. I miss Red. I'm no closer to finding a place to live next semester, but a terrible thought struck me during a meeting I had earlier this evening. My brother is moving to Collegetown next semester. This is not so great news in and of itself. Extra bad news: he's going to need a place to live. I have yet to find a place. What if my parents decide we should live together?! Oh, the horror. I don't want to be his mommy anymore. I know I should take care of him and help him out because he's my brother, but really? I don't want to. He's a mess and I hate the emotional roller coaster he puts people on. I'm his big sister, though, so I will do the right thing and step up, but be prepared for bitching. It's going to be so weird having him here. Especially having him here as the proud participant in a two year probation and AA classes with no driver's liscence. Keeping my substance abusing brother a secret is going to be immensely more difficult. I hear loud laughing so I'd better go. Get drunk. Or something.
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