2008-03-04 - 4:44 p.m.
Hurray for run on sentences and looong paragraphs!

Last night I had a weird crazy chase dream and Blaze was in it! See how terrible I feel about making you worry! You're even appearing in my dreams!

I have another date with that guy tonight. I'm kind of looking forward to it. We're just meeting up and playing pool, but it should be fun. Although, competing with me is never a good idea. I'm too crazy competitive. Hopefully, I'll be able to reign it in or tone it down. Although, if I scare Chomper off now, that'll just save me the trouble of dumping him later, right?

Today was especially exhausting for some reason. The classes weren’t particularly bad, except 6th and 7th periods, but they’re always bad, naughty children. My teacher, Mrs. K, told me she thought I was getting better at handling all the bullshit and waiting quietly for them to get quiet instead of trying to shout over them. I’m also improving on my “respectful redirecting”, which is basically me reminding them nine thousand times a day that I will call on students who have their hands up and that I want to hear everything they have to say and I’m so glad that they’re excited about the book, but I and they can’t hear what’s being said when they talk over one another. Yeah. 6th and 7th period have also taken to hearing me read the book aloud to them every day so I spend at least the last two hours of the day reading aloud. Which is great, I firmly believe that students should be read to, no matter their age. I just never thought it through during all my theory classes about how much voice power that takes. It’s exhausting! My throat and lips get so damn dry! Plus, I walk around the room as I read (yes, I can walk and read at the same time, it’s a talent), so keep them quiet. I must be getting quite the workout.

I really am going to try being better about updating the diary and keeping up with all the ones I read. I just get busy and forget sometimes. This week wasn’t going to be busy, but then I had a mock interview yesterday (which went really well, I feel so much better about my upcoming REAL JOB interviews), I had a million errands to run today and the date tonight, a meeting with my brother tomorrow, group counseling with Quint Thursday and an interview for a summer day camp job on Friday at 3:30. I have no idea how I get so booked up. This week was going to be so nice and appointment free!

Speaking of that interview on Friday, it occurred to me today that for someone who does not particularly like children, I sure spend a whole hell of a lot of time around them. WTF is wrong with me? The job will be a decent one if I can get it. It runs from May 27 through August 8th. I’ll spend the month of May substitute teaching ($120 a day!) and then start my REAL JOB (wherever that will be) in August. I feel like such a grown up. Holy shit, I’m actually graduating college in May and I’m going to get a REAL JOB. That I will work at for THE REST OF MY LIFE. Scary.