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2009-03-08 - 6:49 p.m. I am in a foul, foul mood. And I don't even know how I got this way. At Walgreens, after waiting 10 minutes for the guy to figure out my coupon from my dermatologist has to be activated before I can use it, I almost lost it. "You can activate it tomorrow during business hours," he says. "Can you wait until then for the prescription?" What I said was "Sure. Thank you for your help." What I wanted to say was "Of course I can, nobody ever died from being a pizza face." I do that a lot when I'm pissy (up to 22 swear words now. I screamed the f-bomb twice in quick succession whilst tuning my violin today. Lent is not going all that well). People will converse with me and I'll give really sassy, rude and downright mean answers in my head while actually being as polite as is possible given my internal turmoil. My roomie dear is not home, which is good or that internal cat-fest would easily become outward. Things I would like to yell at her for/have imagined yelling at her for: - "Shut up, you're so skinny," she always says usually in a fairly denigrating way. Next time, it's not going to fly. I want to just yell that her body issues are NOT MY PROBLEM. What does she want to hear? That my body is this small naturally? Or that I eat right and exercise to keep it this way? Because I have a little bit of both going for me. But what I do not have is any more freaking patience for her taking her issues with her body out on me. Start eating healthier, exercise more consistently and then we'll talk. Exercising like you do, but keeping your crappy diet the same is not going to get you where you want to go. - She says this in the car to me the other day: "Do you, as a Catholic, think about your walk with Christ?" Excuse me? YOU feel sorry/sad for ME?! You wanna run that by me again, you condescending wench? Do you really want to throw down in the religion region? Really?! Yes, you may have 2 tattoos of bible verses on your body and you may listen to terrible Christian music. Your religion may also have lovely little buzzwords it uses to pander to its followers who can't stomach anything unless it's spoonfed to them in an appropriately pop culture manner. But that's about all you've got. You want to talk about my walk with Christ? How about this - I don't throw religious differences in your face. Ever. I never claim that what you do or don't do is "Sad". I never point out your hypocrisies - like your condemnation of people who judge or your casual dismissal of that whole "no sex til marriage thing". Unlike you, I actually go to church every Sunday and I actually do consciously try to follow the things that it teaches, even the ones that aren't so fun or aren't so popular. So excuse me. I'll never say this to your face, of course, because I am far better than that. So go ahead and judge and criticize all you please. - RD, you complain about money constantly. And yet, you still get weekly mani-pedi's. You still get a venti latte three times a week from Starbucks. You still drink alcohol at bars and restaurants every weekend. You still buy useless things without thinking about it. You buy hair care products from salons, you wear expensive make up. You buy brand new foods, even when the store brands is 2/3 of the price. Knock it off.
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