2009-06-08 - 11:24 a.m.
The guilt is what I don't understand. I can be lazy! (Apparently not)

Having nothing to do should be awesome.

It was. For the first week and a half. (Oh my God, it's only been 2 weeks?!)

Now's it's just making me feel guilty. I am contributing nothing to society! I work out, eat, sleep, read and watch TV. I know there are a million things I could do, but what if the thing I choose to do is the wrong thing and 9 weeks from now, I'll realize what it was I should have done? So I do nothing. Yeah, that won't make me regret anything.

It's fairly ridiculous. The more I do nothing, the less inclined I am to do something. It's a vicious cycle!

Let's see, things I should do today . . . clean my room, put away all those clothes, fix my bike tires, find a place to recycle those newspapers, ride the bike (after it's fixed of course), get out my school laptop and start making daily agendas for next year. Yep. Seems like there's quite a bit for me to do.

What will actually get done today? Hmmm, I'll probably take a shower, read "Catcher in the Rye", eat those cookies I just baked, watch TV, work out with RD and eat dinner.

I'll let you know. But count on very little getting done.