2009-08-11 - 9:38 a.m.
Love will keep us together

I have a ridiculous amount of anxiety currently. It's especially ridiculous because I don't think I was even this anxious last year when everything was brand new and I'd just moved 500 miles.

It's really, really dumb. I spend all day freaking out, then I go to softball at 3:30 and I'm totally fine. It's so dumb.

I think I just got waaaaaaay to used to doing absolutely nothing. I could do whatever the hell I wanted whenever I wanted. I didn't even have to do anything if I didn't want. And the fact that I spent an entire month back at my parents' house pretending to be a kid again probably doesn't help a damn thing. It really doesn't help the fact that I just want to move back to where my friends are - or at least closer to where they are.

I gave them all tons of shit every time I saw them for not ever coming out to see me last year. Their excuse? "You're too far away!" Okay, a 7+ hour drive is fairly long, I'll give them that, but it's not THAT far AND it's not like there's nothing to do once you get out here! Le sigh. J and her hubby promised to come see me sometime this year. I'm probably not going to hold my breath, given that they are having a baby in October.

Okay, I'm being a whiny bitch today. I'm going grocery shopping and to the library again and then to softball. Practice is actually pretty enjoyable when Autumn is running things.