2005-07-18 - 12:39 p.m.
This is the story of a girl

The obligatory list of 101 things about me. Ooo, I'm original. Oo la la.

Newly updated as of 6/12/05


1. I am the Yellow Ninja. I am a spaz.

2. I never lie.

3. Except for that was just a lie. So I always lie.

4. You have no idea what to believe now, do ya? Because you can't say "I always lie".

5. I have a peg leg.

6. Actually, no. That was a lie. Oh, you're soo messed up in the head now, aren't you?

7. Ok, I'm going to stop being dumb now.

8. I am a very sarcastic person but I'm also shy. So when I do talk, I come off as a bitch because I'm sarcastic. But my rep used to be that I was sweet and innocent. With bitchy tendencies. Oh, the contradiction that is my life!

9. I have the horrible habit of saying either completely ridiculous things or things that are completely sarcastic in a very serious voice with serious facial expressions. People don't quite know how to take that.

10. I have about a five minute grace period with my parents before they just start ignoring me. They love me, but they just can't take my being a wiseass all the damn time.

11. I never change my shirt before going to bed unless I'm wearing something nice or something uncomfortable. I'll change into pj pants but don't bother with the shirt. I'm not entirely sure why.

12. I'm not really a superstitious kind of person. Okay, I did have the usual softball/baseball player superstitions (I did the lazy one wristed bat twirl every time before I stepped into the batter's box). And I don't step on cracks. And okay, whenever I have a big test, or a little test, or anything that I'm nervous for, I wear my super girl underwear. Okay, that's more than a little embarrassing.

13. I am a religious kind of person, though. I'm Catholic and I like it. I get a bit defensive about it because I have been kind of attacked for it several times.

14. What kind of Catholic am I? Fairly good. And Irish Catholic. Tons of guilt. You betcha.

15. My family is very proud of our Irish heritage. It's very big in our lives.

16. Surprisingly, my parents and I don't drink. My sister and brother make it up for us, believe you me.

17. We all, however, are short tempered and stubborn as hell.

18. I don't look like my family. Not even extended family. They are ALL dark haired and almost all dark eyed. I am fair haired and green eyed.

19. My green eyes are stupid, though. I used to love their color shifting ways but now it just bugs me that I can't pin down what color my eyes are. Mostly, they are a greyish greenish color with a dark green ring around the edge.

20. I had never dyed my hair until Christmas Eve '04. Then my sister and I thought "hey, strawberry blonde hair dye is a good idea" because I've always wanted red hair. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I ruined my perfectly good natural honey blonde hair. It was cheeto orange. Then I tried to dye it back. Very stupid.

21. Most of the time, I like my hair a lot. Somedays I get pissed at it because it's curling and I want it straight or it's just being poopy.

22. Too many of these numbers are going to be devoted to it ("it" being my hair), I'm sure. It's long and I like it that way. It provides almost a feeling of security when I wear it straightened and down. I can kind of hide behind it. For some reason, it's harder for me to hide behind it when I leave it curly.

23. Curly. My hair is curly. It's the one physical trait that I have in common with the rest of my family. I have big, long, loose spirals that are always messy and uneven.

24. I have the utterly annoying and vapid looking habit of twirling my hair. I do it usually when I'm thinking or when I'm nervous. And since I'm almost always either thinking or nervous, I'm almost always twisting and messing with my hair.

25. I seem deaf to people because I always have to ask them to repeat themselves when they first start talking to me. I'm not hearing impaired, it's just that I'm always off in Shanland thinking about something else.

26. I bet I space out 65% of the time. Where I got that number, nobody knows.

27. I truly love to read and love learning. Which is probably why I like school. I am a freak about school, though. Very serious about it. Don't come between me and school, I'll straight up kill your ass.

28. We had to name three crimes we've committed in a sociology class once. The only ones I could come up with were speeding (I've never gone more than 10 miles above the speed limit and never gone faster than 80 miles an hour) and trespassing. I'm pretty safe, I guess.

29. I always wear my seat belt. Why wouldn't you? It's just such a habit though that I wear to just back my car out of the garage.

30. I like to sing, I'm terrible at it. I love to dance and I'm pretty sure I'm not very good at that either. I'm awesome at dorky dancing, though. Awesome.

31. I am afraid of clowns. Man, I fricking hate clowns. And I have claustrophobia. And commitment phobia.

32. In the summer, I get completely fitness and diet obsessed. I think it has to do with working at a pool. It's not like I don't care about fitness the rest of the year but in the summer, I am OBSESSED.

33. If I had to pick one feature that I could change with surgery or magic or something, I would pick my teeth. They're not awful but I wish they were more even. I just don't really like 'em.

34. I LOVE peanut butter. Especially with chocolate. I think peanut butter and chocolate are probably my favorite foods. Yum. I think I would eat peanut butter on just about anything.

35. I'm very young looking. Most people think I'm 14. It comes as a real shocker that my sweet little face is in college.

36. People say I'm pretty. Sometimes, I agree and others I just don't.

37. I have a bad arm. I screwed it up very badly playing soccer.

38. I didn't fess up to my shoulder injury right away. And by not right away, I mean I waited until 4 months later during softball season when it kept getting worse until one night I was almost in a car accident because my shoulder dislocated when I was turning the steering wheel with that arm.

39. I had a big ass major surgery to fix my stupid shoulder. I was sick for a very long time afterwards and in a half body cast. It helped but my shoulder is still such a bitch. Man.

40. I was quite a jock. I started playing competitive fastpitch softball at age 7 and soccer even younger than that.

41. Even though I was an athlete, I couldn't be pegged down by just one label in high school. I was also a brain, in band, a drama nerd, and I hung out with the popular kids, though I was not one of them myself.

42. Every best friend I had in grade school moved away.

43. I sneeze probably more than any person on the planet due to my allergies. My record for the most sneezes in a row is thirteen.

44. I also have randon hiccups. Either that or I have the world's more prolonged case of hiccups ever. I hiccup once a day. Just once.

45. I like to drive my car. It's a green honda accord.

46. Green is my favorite color. Well, actually yellow is but I prefer green to it when I buy things. I own a LOT of green.

47. I love the university that I attend.

48. I'm in a sorority and the thing I hear most often is "You? In a sorority? But you don't seem the type!" Whatever.

49. I'm the brain that brings up the house's average with my 4.0 GPA.

50. And yes, I'm allowed to brag. This is my diary.

51. I had two boyfriends in high school. One, a complete asshole, the other, a very sweet cowboy.

52. I dated 4 boys my first year of college. I didn't really like any of them. They were all too dumb.

53. I'm a virgin. And proud to be. I will be one until I'm married but I'm not definitely set on that. Love is the real requirement. Sex will be a very, VERY big deal for me and I won't just give away to anybody.

54. I have incredibly high standards.

55. But not just for other people, my highest ones are for myself. I tend to be a bit of a perfectionist.

56. Ugh, I hate admitting that.

57. I'm quite musical. It relaxes me. I can play the french horn, trumpet, drums, violin and piano. The piano is by far what I'm best at.

58. I took piano lessons for 9 years so I can play pretty well and pretty complicated music. But I despise playing for people. I just hate it. I don't even like playing for my mom. She thinks I'm just being selfish.

59. I hate chick flicks. Blech.

60. I don't like mushy gooshy things either. I'm not a hopeless romantic and don't plan on becoming one either.

61. Despite that I actually am quite sensitive and can be very sentimental. The stupidest things bring tears to my eyes.

62. I would be more sentimental but I just sound so stupid when I try.

63. I cry entirely too often for my tastes.

64. But I will admit that sometimes a good cry is just that.

65. I was SUCH a tomboy growing up. I was pretty ugly, too. I refused to brush my hair or to ever remove my tangled curls from a ponytail. I was raggamuffin.

66. I hated everything girly growing up and you'll hear my displeasure even now whenever I feel I've done or am doing something "girly".

67. People who just drink for the sake of getting drunk drive me nuts. They are one of the reasons I don't drink.

68. The other reason being I don't like alchohol. Beer tastes like piss and hard liquor is just not my thing. I just don't like it.

69. I've never been drunk. I'm kind of afraid of what I will be like when I am.

70. When I get tired, I get punchy. EVERYTHING is VERY VERY funny to me.

71. Is 5'3" short or average? I'm 5'3" and think I'm short just because I've always been small. I might not even be short anymore but it's so ingrained in my psyche that I"d think I was short even if I was 5'7".

72. Weight has always been a problem for me. I can never stay at a steady weight. I'm constantly having one problem or another that makes me underweight. I've never been fat but I have been disgustingly skinny. Twice because I couldn't eat solid food because of a reoccuring jaw problem and once because of my shoulder. I was in a lot pain and on a lot of pain medication, which caused me to throw up everything I ate for 3 months.

73. Though I've never been in love and am not entirely sure that I ever will be, I very much want to get married someday. And I very much want to have lots and lots of babies. I love kids.

74. I don't like to floss my teeth. I get cavaties because of this but does that make me floss? Nooooooo.

75. I always wanted to be an actress. I still love acting and looove being on stage. But now I really truly do want to be a teacher. I'll get to help kids and share my love of books and writing.

76. I love all things 80's. Anybody remember the Ninja Turtle movies from the '80's? The first two? Hot damn, two of my favorite movies of all time. And Rainbow Brite, everyone loves the Rainbow Brite.

77. I like to salute people.

78. I talk to everything. Myself, other people, inanimate objects, the tv . . .

79. I love dogs. I miss my little dog soo much. One of the worst times in my life was when I had to put the poor little thing to sleep. The fact that I had to do that on the day I got back from my grandad's funeral didn't help much.

80. I've had a wonderful life and I'm very lucky. I have good parents and more opportunities than I probably deserve. My sibs aren't so bad either.

81. My younger brother (and his girlfriend) made my life a living hell my senior year of high school. He hated me. He hated our parents. He hated everything. Our house was a very miserable place. I spent a lot of time hiding in my room.

82. He's, thankfully, much better now. I love him even though sometimes I could just kill him. I love my sister very much, too.

83. I used to really hate her. She is 8 years older. She practically raised me and our brother because our dad was very busy and my mom was sick for most of my childhood. I really thought she was an adult and treated her as such. I realize now how very unfair it was for me and my parents to do that to her.

84. I have a slight hair removal obsession. I've tried every dilapitory product known to man. There is still a distinct pleasure in simply shaving, though.

85. My hometown is small. But surprisingly diverse. And by diverse, I mean white people are a minority.

86. My blood type is coffee. Honest. I loooove that stuff.

86. (2 86's! Yes! Because I was born in '86. Not because it's a typo . . .) I was a very sweet child until my brother was born. Then I turned into a demon. I kid you not, I was so fricking evil. Then when I got into middle school, I discovered that being bad was really quite a lot of effort and that my giant conscious got in the way. I've been good ever since.

87. I have nicknames for everyone I come into contact with. It just happens.

88. It may be because people don't really give me nicknames and secretly, I really want one.

89. I don't like things to be really loud. I listen to music quietly and the volume on the tv never gets above 7 or 8 when I'm watching alone. My ears are just sensitive. Plus, I like to be aware of what's going on around me. Kind of hard to do when the TV or music is drowning everything else out.

90. I get into phrase ruts. I'll use words and phrases until they are so completely exhausted they die a well deserved death. For serious.

91. I kinda dropped my high school friends when I got to college. They changed and I did, too. My new friends are so much better.

92. I tend to be a worrier. I can worry about anything, anytime. Give me something to worry about and I'll just go to town. I am sooo not going to live very long.

93. My cousin is my best friend. Meg is awesome, though we do fight and she does a lot of things I don't agree with. But hey, I'm not her mom. And thank God for it.

94. My high school graduation was quite possibly the happiest day of my life.

95. I can't believe how old I am. 19 is young, I know. But it just seems too old for me. Weird.

96. You know that liar thing I went on about at the beginning of this list? I hate crap like that. Really hate it. Thanks a lot, Philosophy 101.

97. God, I'm a nerd.

98. But loveable. . . . Right?

99. The man I marry will have to be smarter than me, which is more difficult than it sounds. And if he's little bit dumber, he will have to be far more practical. And willing to do the bills.

100. I can't sit with my back to the door. Just can't do. Not in restaurants, not anywhere. Gunslinger's syndrome.

101. This was soo random. It's probably awful. Did anyone even read it?